What would you do ??

Watched a movie after ages . Thankfully , it was a wonderful one , at least i felt so .
Now there is a thing in these romantic movies - they are often too idyllic or in 'unromantic' terms "unrealistic" . But then , isn't a movie also supposed to portray our dreams . And which one person in this entire world doesn't wish his/her life to be absolutely and inexplicably perfect and blissful !!!!

If only
Unassuming , simplistic movie (for details , watch the movie .. its decent enough if you are into the romantic genre) . The only thing that sticks for sometime after the credits is the pretty hackneyed question :
What would you do if you knew that this was the last day of your life ?
Personally , the first thing that comes to my mind is : ask for an extension ;-) . But jokes and materialistic thinking apart , this is one question which i think defines the priorities in our lives . The answer to this defines our very existence . Maybe that is why its not the easiest question to answer . And over the years the answer also keeps changing as our character evolves .

But the general idea is always to get a little closer to the people who really matter to you
If you aren't close , get closer .
If you are pretty close already , get closer still .
And then you will feel the time running out on you and you'll wish
if only .. i could have one more day .

And now i must get back to the drudgery of OS and compilers and ...... As i sign off , you'd better start planning because you'll only have ONE last day in your life ( ;-) ) and the catch is
"You can never quite guess it or fix it" .

Of dreams and miracles ...

Remember the time when you looked at the stars as a child !!!
And you thought that they were there only for your taking , all that was needed was a little request to your mom or dad , and they would get it for you :)

The thing is :
Whenever its your first time at something , you dont really know what to expect . So you want something which could be categorized as nothing short of a miracle . And you start living this dream . Hindrances along the way only make you believe even more that the MIRACLE is in the offing . So when does the bubble burst ?? Dont quite know .... but till it does , you pray and hope with all your heart that it comes true .
And maybe once in a lifetime , it does .....
And thats the hope that keeps us going . Thats the inspiration in our darkest hours . The light at the end of the tunnel . The shining stars in a pitch black sky .

However one must never forget - "Living your dream is not just about attaining the result , it is about who you become along the way." As long as you can do that , you deserve to keep dreaming and i daresay , deserve to actually see your dream come true .

And what if it doesn't ????????? Now thats a possibility with probability almost equal to unity but not one i am considering right now . You see , I am living my dream and if i can have just one miracle in my life , let this be it .


P.S. the above thoughts do not quite apply to the regular things in life . its only the most precious things that we dream about and need a miracle to achieve . keep dreaming and one day , it will come true :)

On a starry night ...

This post severely disregards the common perception of a timeline .. so best enjoyed as little independent anecdotes ......

Coming back from LS (after a dinner that took 3 hours, including 2 hours spent just waiting for the food !!!) the most noticeable thing was the absolutely cloudless STARRY sky . Driven by an almost compulsive urge to just gaze at the glittering sky and the support of two friends , went to Gol-C (for the first time ever during a semester) . On the way , the 'romanticism' of the railway tracks was a nice touch to a refreshing evening .

Gol-C : memory refreshed ....
17th june midnight (with udit and jadda)
22nd june evening (with sourish)
tonight (with kundu and loadu .. sourish was lurking in the background somewhere with asha ;) )
the three instances connected by the stars , me and my thoughts . Thoughts which intensified with time, and yet didn't change direction at all . In fact , i remember telling sourish something that evening and thats what is precisely happening now . Confusing ??? I know !!! So lets just concentrate on the stars ... as i lay with my back on the well-trimmed spongy grass (now its pretty ticklish at times) , my mind kept on going back in time ....

This afternoon : Came to know that my cousin who was supposed to come to india this winter , is most likely not going to come . Now i had been looking forward to her visit for the last two years so the news was pretty shattering . But what i realized is that 'Circumstances can often have the final say over human desire , and we can't do much about it' . There are slim chances that she might still make it , so i am praying and hoping .......

I did search for a shooting star because i wanted to make a wish ... but some days are just nadirs in the vicissitudes of life . On days like these , while you look up at the stars and wait for a better tomorrow( where serendipity greets you at every corner) , the trick is to just keep breathing ...