Caught in a deadlock

"Life is a journey , one which is much better travelled with a companion by our side . But sometimes we lose our companion along the way , and then the journey becomes unbearable ."

Life , as we know it , starts from the moment we wake up everyday . And mine started today with a nightmare , which broke and gave way to another ..... "nightmare" !! 7:26 !! .. 4 minutes to the OS class . Brushing up , skipping breakfast , still walking to class ('coz of my now 'permanently' defunct bicycle) , reaching class 15 minutes late and only missing out on a piece of the professor's mind ;) .. not bad actually .

But kept thinking of the nightmare throughout .. somehow even the topic covered reflected the dilemma i was contemplating about .. DEADLOCK !! Lets just say that I had thought forgetting something important was possible .. but it seems far from over . And this battle cant be won , has to be fought alone and could well be devastating .

Life is about baseless expectations , limitless desires , a heart filled with hope ....
and then the shattering of it all .
And even then you dont quite learn your lesson .. dont quite stop dreaming .. cant quite stop expecting .. coz if you do , you lose the very quintessence of life .. HOPE .
And then it gets shattered all over again and more painfully this time around .
But can you give up hope ? Dont know , but seems i so want to , but cant ...

And amidst all this , life moves on .. you dont forget to smile at little jokes with friends , dont forget to listen to your friends and help them out , dont forget to pull their legs overtime , dont forget to complete your assignments , dont forget to watch movies and serials , dont forget the thousand other things that make up life ... and you dont forget HAPPINESS either ( just that it will take some more time and invention of a new route to get there)
But what you CANT forget is what you most want to ... and your foolish heart just doesnt let you forget !!! And you cant help wondering , if you really deserved all the pain ...

After all , if you knew DEADLOCKs , you would know that it isn't really easy to get out of them once you get into one ..

"Life is a journey , one which is much better travelled with a companion by our side . Still , despite our best intentions , some of us will lose our companions along the way , and then the journey becomes unbearable . You see , human beings are designed for many things , but loneliness isn't one of them."

N.B. : Don't read into these as overtures to my personal life . They might appear a bit too personal , as going through them just suggested to me .. but you would really be on a wild goose chase if you thought that they were a direct reference to me . And just in case you liked the opening and closing quotes ... picked up from 'Desperate Housewives' ;)